I Woke Up On Halloween To My Mother Screaming..............

[roger_mary]

I woke up on halloween to my Mother screaming out of her mind, it was so horrid I layed there for a second waiting to realize it was just a dream like usual, but when I realized I was awake I jumped up scared and crying trying to find my mother because I knew it had to be that someone in our family must of died..and my mother comes running out of the hallway waving her hands and screaming dad is dead!
She just thought he had slept in so when she went to wake him he rolled out of the bed dead.
and I ran in there having just woke up to see my father on the ground, white and stiff..dead on halloween at only the age of 59.
and there were no signs no warnings or health problems, the night before he was the happiest I ever saw him and then just like that He was gone, but he had a peaceful look on him and the ambulance came and they agreed that he just died in his sleep because there was no signs of struggle...but I just feel I need to share about My Father and how important is the life we have and who we -know- and what we do.... my brother after coming and taking us from the house and seeing his Father dead, that night he went to bed and woke up and saw clouds in his apartment and he woke his friend up and said " look tim do you see the clouds?" and tim responded " don't you know what that is, thats God's glory."..and if you look in the bible at times clouds did resemble God's glory..anyway my brother felt in that moment as he saw into the spirit that it was like a open line for him to tell dad what he needed to say, that God gave him that opportunity to do it right then, so my brother Joel poured his heart out to my Father..and I believe my dad was there with Jesus hearing what my brother said and I believe he is checking in on us all the time from what some verses say in the bible, about how in heaven there is a gallery where the saints cheer on their loved ones who are still on earth and how they get rewarded for what good things their kids do because its their legacy left behind so they can watch their kids and Family on earth and see how they are doing......So I believe My Father is looking in on us right now and was watching us at the funeral too.....His funeral was so awesome too it was a celebration, so many people were so suprised because they never been to a funeral where you left feeling lifted up because we praised God in this service and shouted for Joy because my dad got to go to Heaven! and not hell!..and the two most important things my Dad wanted was for his kids to know Jesus which we do, but also his siblings as well, so he would talk to them about God and some got saved, but some held out, but at dad's funeral many members of his family raised their hands when my brother the pastor asked who would like to give their life to Jesus! and I believe dad stood there rejoicing right along with us.
My dad worked so hard to provide for his five kids, over thirty years on roofs that there was no reward that would equal what He did for us except to get to go to heaven which came true on halloween and although it feels like there is a void now because its not just "one" person gone, dad had such a huge personality and was a daddy to everyone, He was Mr hugs lol... he had more love then 100's of people put together and he liked the quote " Any man can be a father, but it takes a Special man to be a Daddy." And my Daddy was truly a Special Man, A -Real- Man..and hes not gone, hes just changed addresses, from earth
to heaven, a better location. And I'll see him again and when I do it will be for, forever.
At His funeral We sang the song, " Oh happy day when Jesus washed my sins away" because dad always used to tell me how when he used to sit in bars and get drunk and on the radio the song Oh happy day would come on and hed be drinkin and singing " when Jesus washed my sins away" and He said he had no clue what he was singing about he just liked the song, but he thought it was funny looking back because it was like he was prophesying his own salvation in..because eventually he became saved, he gave his life over to Jesus and found out what that song was all about and that day was truly a happy day.
....Also If you could pray for our family that would be great and also
We don't have life insurance we just didn't expect it to happen so suddenly we had been thinking about getting it though, so yes your prayers would be greatly appreciated, thank you.
and remember..my dad was gone in a heartbeat, just like that without any warning he was in eternity...thankfully he is in heaven...don't miss it...and if you had no proof to -you- to believe then just believe anyway because of the fact that atleast you have nothing to "risk" this way but something good possibly to gain..where as if you chose not to give your life to Jesus you risk everything...but i Assure you, if you ask Jesus into your heart and believe He is the son of God and did die and rise again for your sins so you could be with your Father in heaven some day..if you believe that, if you choose Jesus and repent of your sins...thats it, your saved from hell and bound for heaven, you have nothing to risk and everything good to gain.
God will begin to reveal himself to you the closer you get to him by reading and just talking to him...and if you mess up, your not going to hell..you just simply say " Father forgive me " and just like that your forgiven and the bible says he remembers your sin no more, so that also means you dont need to carry any guilt about any sin you ever commit because you said you were sorry you changed your ways and so the sin is washed in the blood of Jesus, so if God can forgive you...you can also forgive yourself.....so choose Jesus today..you only have everything -good- to gain.

[roger_mary]

And also,
the only experience I had of losing someone close and this year was my sweet dog, but to lose my dad and in the same year with no warning, its just such a shock..and My dad loved football and he had one son, but instead of him I ended up being his football buddy and I am a girl..but it was hard today watching the packers without Him, because I only watched football with Him and he knew everything and any detail any news on the packers and on football in general so it was really hard, but with God I'll get through it, Hes helping me so much..I can just see dad up there having a talk with Reggie white and seeing if they can work something out with Jesus to get those packers back on track, lol.

and you know some weird events that seemed to be trying to prepare us
that dad would die even though we didn't get it at the time happened, like My sister's husband had a dream not too long ago that my dad died and he woke up crying and told my sister, so she prayed and rebuked
it in Jesus' name,thinking it was just satan trying to scare them which satan does do..but the last night my dad was alive at the harvest party before he left my sister had this feeling that it would be the last time she saw him alive, but again she just thought it was satan so she rebuked it in Jesus name and went on..well as you know he died that next morning and when we were right about to tell her dad died, she already knew it was him..but my poor sister blaimed herself, she thought God was warning her, and that she didn't pray enough so thats why he died,..but after the shock wore off a little she realized it wasn't her fault.
-if- the dream was from God, it wasn't to warn her to try to stop it because if that was so he wouln't of just told her and sides she did pray, she did rebuke it, but I believe it was God trying to prepare her for what was going to happen.
and what was so cool was at the harvest party he got to see alot of his family and was the happiest we have ever seen him..that morning at church he said he heard God so clear like it was outloud and dad always wanted that, he never had God speak that clear befor and dad
would sometimes feel guilty like he made too many mistakes, but he was soo happy when He had that experience with God the day before he died..God said something like.." You've been patient and faithful, You will have peace and Everything will be alright."
That made dad so happy and the word seemed now to be for us too to let us know that even though dad isn't here with us physically, that
everything -Will- still be alright, God will take care of us.
and a few weeks ago my Mom felt she had a word for dad from God where He said " You feel like you missed out on your year of jubilee, but I'm going to give You your year of Jubilee
without shame and -pain- or sorrow, but with victory, joy and peace. " so obviously God meant you would -get- to enter into heaven this year that entering heaven this year was his Jubilee and without
pain which is true he just died peacefully in his sleep!
and you know a story popped into my head like a day or two before
dad died..I remember dad as usual when i was at the computer and he was off to bed he would come over and hug me and say goodnight and love You and that night i was finishing my story when he hugged me for the last time..and the story was just something to post on a website, but I was suprised that it just popped into my head because I haden't written a short story in like a year, but what the story was about was this young man found his girlfriend who he thought too was just sleeping, but then realized she was dead, and the boy's father was named Roger..which is the name of my Father,
anyway how the story ends is God telling him that he -will- see her again in heaven and that God would turn the bad into good..and that she would live through him by the things he did that she couldn't do
any more..and that He too would also do what God called him to when he was just in the womb..and how He was waiting to heal his broken heart and give him a life that isn't just moments of -joy- but it will be a lifestyle....now when I was writing this I remember thinking...man this sounds prophetic, maybe this story is to help someone online...and I believe it was from God and the person it was meant to help was me..I had been praying and belieiving that God would speak to me and He sure did..theres so many similiarities in the story to me and to have it just pop into my head and finish it the final night my dad was alive..I just really believe it was right from God..and also I too was blaiming myself that I didn't have a job and the reason I didn't was because I before was so in fear that I had a nervious breakdown and my sweet Father totally understood, but I felt guilty when I found him dead...but you know in the story it also mentions that it wasn't the persons fault that the loved one died....isn't that cool!?
God rocks!
But I would of liked my daddy to have walked me down the aile at my wedding, he did for all three of my sisters, but I believe He will be there even if I can't see him phsyically, we are still one in spirit because we are all joined with the same Christ being -one- in the body of Christ! and the bible does talk about the saints in
heaven cheering on those who still remain on earth, but
you'll have to look it up and I will sometime too..I don't believe they watch all the time though
but I do believe God will let them see us sometimes which is awesome!
Anyway, sorry for talking so long I just really Feel that I need to..and again I would really appreciate any prayers because prayer works and since we don't have life insurance if you could please pray that the money comes in I would really appreciate it.....thank you very much.

[oakie]

hi, If you still need money help I saw this site on tv, news, am shows, newspapers...on the Happy news website....I have donated to it and there are other members from wisconsin using this to help their finances in times of need....

http://www.modestneeds.org/

IN fact this is the 1st charity my business Studio traffic that I am an agent for.. has donated to as they saw the importance of it....I was so thrilled!

good luck and my prayers be with you and yours in your time of need....


(((((roger-mary))))

Jan