Now you see , for I have not been .... on this website for now till then
I look at the date and it is a wierd one if fact is stranger than fiction!
It is the annaversary of my fathers DEATH, His meeting with ends imperfections....
I do not know , nor do I try to wonder why if or even when the next family member will die!
For you see they have disowned me, for stuff I did as a child, maybe when I was three??
I do not know why , nor will I ever try because I told...

Well it has finally happened the day my father passed away... My 2 brothers and sisters i think disowned me in there own way.
They said to me "you get nothing, and if so we vote on it and its 3 to 1 so you loose"
I have not written for a while , even there lawyer is a jerk. He says bad things about me. I called him and he used very bad words on the phone when I ask what he was going to charge and that I wanted an itemized bill and he said" FU** you I can charge what...

The other day (on friday 9/10/06)a day I will remember forever; For the beast has come to claim his prize.... It was my father, The man that I Idolize.
The day before I visited him, dad seemed to be doing fine. said he hoped he would get stonger to leave this all behind...
It looked as to me he was in great spirits, for I thought he was speaking of returning to his own home... But not for the Cancer building within that would go forwarnd...
On that snowy Friday, My sister she...

My dad is sick as sick as can be
for he has cancer, same thing but differant type that stole my mother from me,
Now the Doctors say here take this...
Its a new Medical Wonder Drug To Try to dismiss,
BUT,fist sign here, our liabilities we fear,
the DRUG will only cost you $4000 a month...
Your insurance will not pay thay say...
for it is an EXPEREMENTAL drug they offer this day...
for you must sell, beg, borrow, or steal...
to pay,and...

Wow, I hit a deer the other day... Why I lived I can not say...
I saw a light from up above... Was it from someone that I once Loved??
My car was damaged on the frount, it was the 3rd of july,
Could it have been My gaurdian angel?? or MY Mother is she lookin down over me! did she or could she have saved me that night , when all those deer came from out of my site??