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RE: I Woke Up To My Mother Screaming...
And also,
the only experience I had of losing someone close and this year was my sweet dog, but to lose my dad and in the same year with no warning, its just such a shock..and My dad loved football and he had one son, but instead of him I ended up being his football buddy and I am a girl..but it was hard today watching the packers without Him, because I only watched football with Him and he knew everything and any detail any news on the packers and on football in general so it was really hard, but with God I'll get through it, Hes helping me so much..I can just see dad up there having a talk with Reggie white and seeing if they can work something out with Jesus to get those packers back on track, lol.
and you know some weird events that seemed to be trying to prepare us
that dad would die even though we didn't get it at the time happened, like My sister's husband had a dream not too long ago that my dad died and he woke up crying and told my sister, so she prayed and rebuked
it in Jesus' name,thinking it was just satan trying to scare them which satan does do..but the last night my dad was alive at the harvest party before he left my sister had this feeling that it would be the last time she saw him alive, but again she just thought it was satan so she rebuked it in Jesus name and went on..well as you know he died that next morning and when we were right about to tell her dad died, she already knew it was him..but my poor sister blaimed herself, she thought God was warning her, and that she didn't pray enough so thats why he died,..but after the shock wore off a little she realized it wasn't her fault.
-if- the dream was from God, it wasn't to warn her to try to stop it because if that was so he wouln't of just told her and sides she did pray, she did rebuke it, but I believe it was God trying to prepare her for what was going to happen.
and what was so cool was at the harvest party he got to see alot of his family and was the happiest we have ever seen him..that morning at church he said he heard God so clear like it was outloud and dad always wanted that, he never had God speak that clear befor and dad
would sometimes feel guilty like he made too many mistakes, but he was soo happy when He had that experience with God the day before he died..God said something like.." You've been patient and faithful, You will have peace and Everything will be alright."
That made dad so happy and the word seemed now to be for us too to let us know that even though dad isn't here with us physically, that
everything -Will- still be alright, God will take care of us.
and a few weeks ago my Mom felt she had a word for dad from God where He said " You feel like you missed out on your year of jubilee, but I'm going to give You your year of Jubilee
without shame and -pain- or sorrow, but with victory, joy and peace. " so obviously God meant you would -get- to enter into heaven this year that entering heaven this year was his Jubilee and without
pain which is true he just died peacefully in his sleep!
and you know a story popped into my head like a day or two before
dad died..I remember dad as usual when i was at the computer and he was off to bed he would come over and hug me and say goodnight and love You and that night i was finishing my story when he hugged me for the last time..and the story was just something to post on a website, but I was suprised that it just popped into my head because I haden't written a short story in like a year, but what the story was about was this young man found his girlfriend who he thought too was just sleeping, but then realized she was dead, and the boy's father was named Roger..which is the name of my Father,
anyway how the story ends is God telling him that he -will- see her again in heaven and that God would turn the bad into good..and that she would live through him by the things he did that she couldn't do
any more..and that He too would also do what God called him to when he was just in the womb..and how He was waiting to heal his broken heart and give him a life that isn't just moments of -joy- but it will be a lifestyle....now when I was writing this I remember thinking...man this sounds prophetic, maybe this story is to help someone online...and I believe it was from God and the person it was meant to help was me..I had been praying and belieiving that God would speak to me and He sure did..theres so many similiarities in the story to me and to have it just pop into my head and finish it the final night my dad was alive..I just really believe it was right from God..and also I too was blaiming myself that I didn't have a job and the reason I didn't was because I before was so in fear that I had a nervious breakdown and my sweet Father totally understood, but I felt guilty when I found him dead...but you know in the story it also mentions that it wasn't the persons fault that the loved one died....isn't that cool!?
God rocks!
But I would of liked my daddy to have walked me down the aile at my wedding, he did for all three of my sisters, but I believe He will be there even if I can't see him phsyically, we are still one in spirit because we are all joined with the same Christ being -one- in the body of Christ! and the bible does talk about the saints in
heaven cheering on those who still remain on earth, but
you'll have to look it up and I will sometime too..I don't believe they watch all the time though
but I do believe God will let them see us sometimes which is awesome!
Anyway, sorry for talking so long I just really Feel that I need to..and again I would really appreciate any prayers because prayer works and since we don't have life insurance if you could please pray that the money comes in I would really appreciate it.....thank you very much.
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